Don't Lose Yourself

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found it hard to believe tat i posted so many posts ytd.
did much soul searching i guess.
but i din mention the lua rite at least?
she nv fails to ruin my fridays by ending it on a horrible note.
shan`t elaborate.
it isn`t right to HUMILIATE/CRITISIE ur teacher in ur blog.

everything`s too fast for me.

i REALSIED:
things are lky so diff now..
people change with time.

i WONDER:
when will i be able to
SING lky no one`s there,
DANCE lky no one`s looking,
HOPE lky it existed,
DREAM lky it was all coming true, just for me,
LIVE lky everyday`s the best,
LOVE lky i`ve never been hurt, AGAIN.

tat was the past. things are diff now as i`ve said.
different people,
different hope,
different life,
different mindset,
different situation,
different time,
different story,
different ending,
different love.

i need to grow up la.
standing at 15+ years of age.
somewhere in the middle,
neither left nor right, wrong nor right.
it could be better if i jus remain kid la.
i mean life then was wu you wu lui.
everyday jus eat sleep play, no worries, no troubles.
my thinking is tat i`m lky still the little girl tat`s 12?
tat`s wad i think la.
and.. i`m short la.
it makes things worse.
lky little kid la.
fustration is the word.

i`m going to rot and decompose for today.
cos mon got labour day hol.
wahahahas.
i wan change blogskin!!!!!
haven seen him for lky long?
last saw him on wed.
gosh. it was tat long.

YO.
i`ve OFFICIALLY PASSED OUT.
wooHOO~!!!!!
SPEECH DAY ROCKS BIG TYM~!!!!
exp for the speech part la.
ms sim and the vice head prefect tok alot la.
boring lo.
BUT OTHER DEN TAT.
it jus ROCKS la.
i love the BAND!!!!!
they so cute lo.
esp the trumpets section.
they all so damn cute lo!!!!
LOL.
i so enthu for lky no reason.
i lky the przi receiptiants` ties la.
smart man.

i wan to sae someth.
i v scared of sheng ting.
lol.
cos she lky so suay ytd la.
i think i passed my last week de suayness to her liao.
lol.
den during recess she cry la.
cos she think she so suay.
cos she din bring the cca thingy and i accidentally spray the chilli oil on her from my soup.
den we go back to class.
den nafe go ditsurb her.
den she cry again.
hahaha.
den nafe shock dao.
den walk away.
dun even dare tok to me cos i stting in front of her.
den he go use sign language behind her to COMMUNICATE wiv me.
den i dun understand.
i laugh till siow lo.
lky so bad hor?
nvm.. let`s continue.
den along comes xing jun..
holding the whole class de cca thingy la.
actually he wan sae something wan.
den she saw the paper..
den cry again.
den xing jun was lky -_-?!! wad i do?
den sze hui was lky ehhs u go away la.. see la.. she cry again..
hahaha.
so damn funny lo.
den he walk away..
use the paper cover his face.
hahaha. damn funny.
sheng ting oso kluaghing lo.
i bwg la.
hahas..

WOOTS~~~~!!!!!!!!!

i`m lky so god damn excited now..
cos tml`s my last performance in cckks!!!!!
SPEECH DAY SPEECH DAY~~!!!
AT CDANS~~!!!!! YEAHS~!!!!!
i`m finally passing out!!!!!!!!
omg omg omg!!!!!!
i think once we pass out choir really going to collapse le lo.
ytd once most of the seniors stop singing the total volume sort of HALFED.
freaked me out mans.
nv tot it was tat bad.
seems lky there really wasn`t much hope left for chior anymore.

com is so lag on the blogskins de page lo.
i wan change blogskin.. AGAIN.
lol.

gone wiv the old; and *something something* with the new.
my motto. *claps*
i dunnoe and cannot rmb wad is the something something la.
hahahas. tat`s DUMB.
lalala~~!!

hope to see someone tml.
hahaha. wish me luck.
rather late tis few daes.
den miss diao. -.-

gonna do flag day in may..
wonder wad it`s gonna be lky..
my first flag dae..
hahas..
doing it for cip hours.
to brush up my cca result.
i still doing the donation card thingy lo.
kaos.. so troublesome.

there`s somethg wrong wiv blogger ytd.
last few days my com hard disk BURN diao.
kaos. i nearly died.
den ytd ar.
my phone suddenly jus SHUT DOWN.
den i tot SPOIL.
den i was lky so damn depressed for the rest of the day la.
in the end, i realised..
my phone de batt sort of short circuit-ed la.
den i go charge lo.
my beloved phone..
lol.
passed out from choir already.
lky so damn fast.
tis fri last performance le.
wooHOO~~!!!!!
but still..
there`s some kind of bu se de..
although can`t wait to pass out in the past la.
tat`s DUMB. LOL.
geog test tml..
many things happened.
can`t really rmb..
DIAO. stm.
5 may is sch de chi paper.
so damn fast.
oh FUCK.
den lky only around one damn month to chi o lvl paper.
and...
i`ve started on NOTHING. ABSOLUTELY NOTHING.
DAMN it.
btw.. i feel lky changing blogskin again.
crap.
current cca resukt is crap. D7 mans.
what is tis..?!
den got alot of things din add in wan.. kns..
tat`s all bahhs. update when i rmb more.

memories= today`s laughter; tomorrow`s tears.
i love him.

whoa..
so many days din blog got alot alot of things to sae..
now not free lehs..
last few daes com hard disk burnt..
DIAO.
den reformat the whole thing *bangs wall*
den today oso nearly heart attack cos ytd jus charge my phone..
den today phone shut down dowan open..
i tot SPOIL.
nearly go kill myself.
lol.
today sae until here la..
btw..
i passing out from choir le!!!
yeahs~!!
although abit se bu de la..
ABIT LA.
i dunnoe why..
and cca current result sucks lky hell lo.
tat`s all.
got tuition.

YTD was fine, i guess.
only YTD.
nothing, other than YTD, was fine.
oh fuck.
hate the world.
getting sick soon.
thanks to 2.4
bloody hell.
so, i pray and pray and pray for tml to be FINE again.
for everyth to be lky the same on ytd.
i love ytd,
i dunnoe why.

bloody hell.
tis is really NOT my week lo.
damn sis cannot keep her bloody mouth shut.
bloody kpo fren soooo damn interested in wad goes on in my life.
how i make a fren and how i noe some stupid guy.
and she cant resist the CHARM of her nice little kpo fren.
den so xia suay.
keep falling down.
lky baby learning to walk liddat.
and i fail my 2.4 again today cos mon i fall down den leg pain cannot run PROPERLY.
den also today nearly fall down the stairs.
wtf?! luckily jia yi there den before tat she already holding my hand..
if not i fall and break my teeth.
OH FUCK IT ALL MAN.

FUCK u man.
dun understand SIMPLE instructions.
ur fren kpo den u go and tell her EVERY SINGLE DETAIL of my life la?!
bloody hell.
i HATE bloody fucking KPO kias okie.
cant u jus tell ur idiotic bitchy fren to FUCK OFF.
if tat`s the case u can`t shut ur bloody mouth.
i wun trust u anymore.
i sae before lo, if ur fren ask jus sae none of her bloody business.
SO DAMN DIFFICULT is it?
DAMN YOU.
FINE~ i WUN EVER EVER tell u any single bloody detail abt me anymore.
ur bloody fucking fren has no damn right to interfer.
she dares to call ONE MORE tym.
tat`s it.

wah lau..
today i lky so damn suay lo.
first thing in the morning got dental visit
den got oral and i forgot the points tat i prepare during the 1o mins.
den i fall down on the bus.
ma de..
tat guy so damn FAT lo.
den when reach my stop liao he jus nice sit down on the empty seat nxt to me.
den i wan to stand up, he din even bother to move an inch lo.
den i trip over his damned fatty legs and fall landing straight on my butt la.
it was lky so ma lu lo.
den he whole bus behind me wan was lky all going AIYO..!!!!
den i dunnoe they luffing or pitying me lo.
ma de..
den i actually wan turn back and scold him wan lo.
budden i see the uncle lky going to close the door liaos,
so might as well get off the bus first den sae.
ma de..
den i think i lky sprain my ankle lo.
so god damn pain lehs..
den now still abit pain..
i go ask mommy got wad miao fang can wash off SUAYNESS anot..
and ta da~~
i got it.
lalalalas~~
jus came out from my bathe.
hopefully lky wad ivy said, tml will be a better dae.
HOPEFULLY.

i hope to get to see someone tml.
i hope i will be in a good good mood tml.
i oso hope tat tml`s chi oral will turn out fine.
i hope tat tml i wun fall again.
i oso hope tat someone will take the bus all the wae tml.
tat`s all i hope.
all in all, i hope tat tml will turn out FINE.
i only asked for FINE.
nothing much.

i realised i forgotten to post abt my ice age 2 movie!!!!
the movie was damn nice la.
den i so damn lky the squirrel.
it`s so damn cute !!!!!
die liao still cannot get the nut.
lol.
hahahas..

there are 84 pupils in primary six. 5/8 of the boys and 3/4 of the girls wear glasses. there are 58 pupils who wear glasses. how many boys and how many girls wear glasses?
who cares anyway?
btw, tis is a pri o5 qns. i`m doomed.

WOOTS~~~~~!!!!!!!!!
i found my skin le.
perservance. whatever tat is.
lalalala~~
i`m happy. x))
yeahs~~!!!
at least i think i found it.
looks the same as the last tym tat one anyway..
so.. wad`s the diff?
lalalalas~~~

i`m changing skin~~~
lalalas~~~
wan back my last yr de skin.
simple and cute.
somethg abt a bus stop wan la..
but..
cannot find it le..
x((
depressing mans..
i wan my bus stop skin !!!!
got special significance wan lo.
ARHHH !!!!!
why i so stupid go change.
*bangs wall*

ARGGHH!!
i haf done somethg i shdn`t do.
a promise frm th beginng of th yr.
and.. it`s killing me.
tis sucks.
and yet, it feels diff la.
weirdo me.

i wanna make u cry, die nd beg.

i miss him so.
i dun need tis.
i`m not supposed to be thinking tis way.
tis is not right.
i`m annoying the hell out of myself.

it nv pays to be kind.
FUCK THE WORLD MAN.
I TREAT U SO GOOD AND TIS IS HOW U REPAY ME.
U BETTER WATCH OUT.
INSULTS WILL COME SPATTING AT U ANY DAMN MOMENT.
JUST WATCH OUT.
DUN UNDERSTAND FIRST COME FIRST SERVE POLICY.
FUCK U.

haven been blogging..
added somethg nice to my blog today.
muaHAHAHAHAs..
try clicking it.
LOL.
i dunnoe wad to sae tabt tis few daes la.
lky the feeling of depression and happiness cum together la.
weird lo.

now i think ppl should teachtheir kids tat it is not rite to any old how accuse ppl of something tat they din do. lyk my sis.
i hate ppl when they accuse me of PRETENDING OR FORGETING something tat i DIN EVEN HEAR.
and now she thinks tat an apology can cure all things.
not really possible la, i must sae.
in my case, NOT possible at all.
:)

fuck la.
my hand pain until tis morning shaking liaos.
den jus now i tell the bloody sis to DUN TOUCH my hand.
den she go PINCH the top part.
bloody hell.
which is the most painful de part lo.
den maybe touch not so pain.
but she PINCH lehs.
mother fucker la.
actually the below elbow tat pain not like now so pain wan lo.
now pain until there liaos.
knn.

wah kao..
whole body pain~~~
luckily tis will be my last and final tym taking napfa.
pathetic lo me..
den tofay nv eat lunch..
in the end choir 53o den finish.
i hungry until wan faint liao lo.
leg oso soft lo.
den go eat food junction.
den finally got thing to eat liaos..
i first tym go there eat so much lo.
den now so damn tired..
tml got tuition..
sian.
my differentiation doom liaos.
i only noe some parts.
den most of them connected to each other de..
die~~~

today had the napfa test.
i so god damn happy cans ?
i PASSED ALL my five stations.
it`s lky IMPOSSIBLE de lo.
but it HAPPENED.
lol.
these are my results.
sit ups: 4o
standing board jump: 148
sit and reach: 41 or 43. not sure.
incline chin up: 16
shuttle run: 12.4... something..

now i mus chiong my 2.4 le.
cannot let 2.4 pull my results down.
lalalalas~
wah kaos~
i fed up lehs..
i tot 16 jiu 5 marks le cos the paper put >16.
den i tot 16 jiu can liaos.
kaos..
den in the end is more den 16 den 5 marks.
actually i still can do de lo.
den horhhs..
somemore tis yr first tym ying win me lehs..
last tym we always compete de..
den cos my index no more behind her.
den i purposely do ONE more.
hahas.
den tis yr i FORGOT.
kaos..
den she do 24 lo.
pro sia..
haiis..
nvm..
at least i pass everything at one shot le !!!!
YEAHS~~~!!!!!
first tym !!!!!
den jus now go bukit panjang plaza make sticker..
got my name de lehs !!!!
so nice..
den i stick one on my hp..
yeahs ~!!!!!
i love it so much !!!!

i wan tok abt the lsl..
kaos..
she so bo liao lo.
LAST FRIDAY
jia yi wan pon cca.
den she hit my butt den jiu chiong for gate liaos.
den TODAY
she go call jia yi out the class jus for tat lo.
cos the lsl tot jia yi calling her BITCH.
so the LOL lo.
jia yi sae bye bye, she hear bitch.
lky wtf ?!
den we actually wan form tag team go argue wiv her.
den jia yi sae later she slap us wiv one yr of detention form.
hahahas..
den i sae later she write in our leaving sch testimonial wad crap ar..
den in the end forget it lo.
anyway no matter wad she oso die die wan win wan ma..
so oso no point.
hahahas..
write until here la..
tat`s all.

i realised i got the same birthday as the campus superstar contestant.
the theresa, the female winner lo.
dun believe ?
http://u.mediacorptv.com/campussuperstar/female9.htm
click that.
exactly the same somemore..
dunnoe wad hospital horhhs..

ZHI YANG ROCKS BIG TIME !!!!!!
WOOTS~~~
i love him LOADS !!!!
lalala~~~
today is a GREAT GREAT day.
shan`t disclose the details :)
tat`s all.

it`s all dead depressing.
everything is.
everywhere i look.
everywhere i go.
i hate the world.
read a few blogs jus now.
i guess they kinda seem to agree with me too.
i think i`m going mad soon.
phsycotic.
it`s all in the brain.
how one thinks and everything.
so now, i need to change my mindset.
to wad? i dunnoe.
i used to be rather sure and confident of almost everything.
but now, almost everything makes me ponder over it,
and haf more than just second thoughts.
it`s not easy to be me.
i`m just a kid- simple plan.
yups.
indeed i`m just a kid,
in fact, i`m a very small kiddo.
smaller than the average.
i`m wondering wad has caused this great emotional and physcotic change in me.
i dunnoe tat too.
weird, yea?
it`s also not easy to just be even existing.
life sucks.

i dun need to feel tat again.
tat type of insecurity,
not knoeing wad tml brings.
i dun need it..

this sucks like hell.
it`s all wrong.
this shouldn`t be happening.
IT`S JUST WRONG.

live. love. and learn.

suffering from depression again.
i`m sick and tired of tis damned world.
and i`m not someone clever until i noe wad u thinking wan horhhs.
in fact, i`m exactly the opposite.
get it ?
and u dun even noe i care,
care for u, stupid.
get ur message through and set ur thinking straight can ?
i dun understand u.
neither do u understand me.
THANKS, ALOT FOR THAT.
tat`s not wad i wan, at all.
i dun wan everything to repeat another episode somehow all over again.

hai niao geng yu xiang ai,
zhi shi yi chang yi wai.

true enough.
i love jay !!
his songs helps me put my feelings into words.

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