Don't Lose Yourself

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huge headache.

for ytd & today, it's all abt choices.
had been making a hell lot of choices for the future.
first, it's jc,mi, poly or ite.
believe me, i have seriously considered ite for it's hospitality course,
or somethg liddat.
but decided tt no point luhs.

so now, it's back to the square one, poly.
& in poly, there are so many damned courses to choose.
dad recommended envt mgt & water tech, which i have no interest in.
& mass com. not tt i have no interest in it.
thg is, i have no interest in it's career prospects, other den advertising.
other den tt, it's mostly behind the scenes, abit sian.
& there's lik no way i'm gg to be a DJ.
i'm scared of being alone in the big, dark & scary studio. =.="
me useless luhs, can ?

i realise tat ar, i come from a family of mainly engineers.
so dumb can ?
see ar, my dad is an engineer, the in charge of buildings de kind.
his bro is electronics de engineer.
another bro.. i dunnoe wad. one sis civil engineer.
another sis is i dunnoe wad oso. LOL.
another sis now, i think lookg for a job ? abit no link luhs.
but my dad de uncles all engineers lo. so the =.=" lo.
& if i really can study marine & offshore tech,
i will be going to ~~engineer~~ DESIGN cargo ship lehs !
MAI SIOW SIOW HOR. lol.
cos they got the design option !
i think the whole paragraph no link de. so totally random.
my uncle ask me study civil engineering lo. wth.
i dowan go build bridge luhs. ships are far more interesting !
& even his wife oso is study engineering course de. LOL.

okays, & till now i have no idea on wad to apply for poly.
i think after maritime, i will dump business courses from np.
den mass com, den Sp de courses ba.
first 6 Np last 6 Sp !
but nothg is confirmed yet luhs.
tml gg to the 2 polys to ask & poke ard.

&& to some idiot out there,
submarine & ship is DIFFERENT de horrrrs.
a submarine is built to go UNDER water,
& a ship is built to stay AFLOAT the water.
BOHBOH !

OH MAN, i forgot wad i wanted to blog abt.

the only thg i can rmb is,
after wednesday, another job-huntg session is gg to begin.
i would NEED a job agn.
cos i need money !
but it's sooooo near CNY alrdy.
might be easier or wad? hopefully.
SIAN LUHS~~~~

went to grandparents, as in mom's parents place today.
my jiu jiu's wife ask a v hurting qns regardg my o lvl results.
"how many A1s ?"
so i reply"2 A2."
"den A1 lehs ?"
& i felt so inferior luhs. _l_
& i dun feel lik toking to her anymore, jus nice we are leaving alrdy.
perfect timing. so i jus shook my head & said BYEBYE.
but my sis ar, .. , took her own sweet time to leave.
& i stood there lik an idiot staring at her. T.T
no A1 my fault mehs. kukubird.
NVM, let's see ur daughter a few years ltr can get how many A1s.

i wanted to slap her 1000000000000000000 X can ?
ppl is ask L1R4/L1R5 get how much.
she ask how many A1. WTF WTF ???
& also, it's not lik she is damn highly educated. =.="
i'm not saying wad luhs. but seriously,
who asks qns lik THAT ?
puis luhs.

my aunty so "i no comments" can.
she ask me wan study wad & i sae most prob maritime, hai shi ye.
den she HUH ! need to stay on sea wan lehs.
den i tell her Np de mostly land based.
& she say, liddat go Np better.
&& she was the one who wanted me to go Sp.

i think, ppl shd gif more constructive advice.
cos they all sae the same thg, with not much meaning.

& also, global warming sucks.
the weather is horrible, & i hate it.

it sucks to be standing at the crossroads,
with hundreds of paths laid out in front.
& with few paths that leads to the end at the finishing point.
- the first time i'm choosing my future path for ME.
felt so SICK from all tt thinking.

- i DOWAN to regret AT ALL.

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