Don't Lose Yourself

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Moving on to the next chapter.

18th May marks the end of my 3 years in Poly and now I'm officially jobless. The School of Architecture and the Built Environment for Singapore Polytechnic kick started the school's 5oth graduation ceremony. & Yours Truly is now a proud graduand with a Diploma! :D

Congratulations to all Graduands and enjoy life colourfully! :D

The two main worries of the day was (1) what if I fall on stage, (2) what if my mom drives my dad mad. Well, apparently it doesn't really matter cos what matters most was that everyone was together, got the chance to meet up and it was an awesome day. And all those worries are uncalled for. Though it wasn't all good, had to miss photo-taking session cos dad wanted lunch, seriously, of all times for lunch.

Anyway, went back to school after that, talked to Ms Koh, got some advice. Skies started to rain, lol, ordered pizza, waited almost an hour for the shutter bus, &..... had fun at Marina Barrage! :DDDDD

From now on, it will be a totally new chapter for me to paint my life.
& I'm taking a short break for a while.
Bounced back to work each time I say I'm going to go on break.
Yet again, it doesn't feel good to be sitting around......

The future seems bleak; first it's whether I'll get accepted, and then money is another factor. Who would have enough madness to pay over 60k for a three year course and no guaranteed honours. After getting the degree, whether will I be able to get a job that I'll get to enjoy is another problem, or whether I can even get a job is a concern. Oh, and there will be bank debts to pay. GOD. Growing up is scary.

Faith?
I think I require a ton.

Money....
I need to start working on it.
Save money, quit online shopping, cut down on shopping, eat less, etc.
Not waste food, not wasting money on food, START EXERCISING.
Other than just Uni, there's the TW trip as well, I don't want to just make my dad pay for everything when he's already paying for every single possible thing in the household.
Should start looking for a job soon.

Dad caught a tiny crab off the road yesterday. Now it's living in a plastic bag, filled with frustration I believe.

It feels like each time I do an update my life seems more depressing.
Well, it's not that bad, just that I tend to blog only when there are tons of things weighing on my mind. :)

Labels: ♥, food for thought

choatic turmoil

I've been wanting to blog about this since yesterday.

As I've been working currently, office life can be quite boring. Hence, I got really up to date with whatever that's been going on with the world, by reading straitstimes, cnn, cna and times.
It's depressing to read about all the news articles, people dying, people being unhappy with each other, natural disasters, man-made errors and so on.

Poland's president and many other important members of the nation got killed in a plane crash,
accident or conspiracy, up to you to judge.
Fact remains that they're no longer around, and the nation is facing a major crisis.

Thailand's protest, Idk what each party wants. It gets sickening to know that innocent lives are taken away just because of other's unhappiness.

Russia, terrorists attacks. Seriously, what is wrong with these people.

Wonder what's the world coming to now.
Maybe 2012 is going to be real.

People might say that my views are narrow minded, on sided, or that I'm not part of the country, so who am I to know any better and such, but the fact remains that, the world feels really blue now.

Labels: random thoughts

hanging by a thread

Finally finished submitting the required uni docs, other than the transcripts and diploma cert.
The whole process was exhausting and draining.
Right from the very first trip down to the school.
I would like to whine a lot more right now, but this is all that I'm willing to share.

Hate the feeling of not knowing what to expect, not being able to see where I am going to be in, say, the next 3 months. I hear reassurance all the time, yet, the uncertainty still remains.

Okay, this sucks.

Work is still just......
How do I put this.
Same shit; different day.

I'm going to rot my weekends away, maybe get a hair trim tml.
I seriously miss being in events.
I believe I would be happy rotting my holidays away, instead of working.
I hope everything that happens, happens for a purpose and things have a way of working out.

Yet, I believe too much hope and faith will also trash you like mad at the end of the day.

Just another season.
Have you found someone to love?

Labels: :(, ♥, moody-ness, work, worry

Work; life.

A little update on life currently before I head to bed.

Currently working at one of the MNCs in woodlands, doing random admin.
Life is pretty mundane, same cycle repeating itself over and over again.
Work makes me think a lot, when the duties are pretty mindless.
Made plenty of lists, shopping list, saving list, grocery list, debts, etc.
Thought through certain stuffs.
Decided that I might really be happy in events.
As long as my job scope doesn't just consist of sitting in front of the computer and facing purchase orders, and stuff.
Well, but now I guess I know how it feels to face the same thing over and over again, every single day.
No wonder people look miserable.
Not something I enjoy, at all.
Still, the cultural exposure is quite an interesting experience.

Weekends ain't any better.
When you finally wish to stay home and get some rest, the family gives you plenty of shit.

Uni applications, I'll try to complete by Friday, final semester results, and such.
(Please, grant my leaveeeeee!)

Friend is really adorable and, kind of the only motivation to get through the week. Zzz.
♥ enthusiastic school boy :)

Today I tell myself, there are lines I must not cross.
& today, I draw the line.
You shouldn't mean more to me than what you mean to any other person.

I know this is really ironic, looking at my previous post, but times change.

motto in life

This shall be my personal goal for as long as I can, or as long as I live.
To love and not expect.
Take care of yourself, please. :)

Labels: :), ♥

Bye.

Gone, is all traces of hope, held so high in the beginning of the year.
So much for faith.
In all aspects.

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