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hanging by a thread

Finally finished submitting the required uni docs, other than the transcripts and diploma cert.
The whole process was exhausting and draining.
Right from the very first trip down to the school.
I would like to whine a lot more right now, but this is all that I'm willing to share.

Hate the feeling of not knowing what to expect, not being able to see where I am going to be in, say, the next 3 months. I hear reassurance all the time, yet, the uncertainty still remains.

Okay, this sucks.

Work is still just......
How do I put this.
Same shit; different day.

I'm going to rot my weekends away, maybe get a hair trim tml.
I seriously miss being in events.
I believe I would be happy rotting my holidays away, instead of working.
I hope everything that happens, happens for a purpose and things have a way of working out.

Yet, I believe too much hope and faith will also trash you like mad at the end of the day.

Just another season.
Have you found someone to love?

Labels: :(, ♥, moody-ness, work, worry

It's December alrdy!

Hello, I haven't been blogging for such a long time that I deserve the death penalty, I know.
Well, I'm one busy lady.
To be really honest, Idk why am I here, but am quite excited to be blogging. LOL.
I've tons of other stuff to do, not that my brain is functioning perfectly well.
But then again, there's always things to be done, so it doesn't really matter..

It's the holidays again, and finally.
Been one hell of a hectic term.
Time has been travelling too quickly for me to catch up and at times it feels like I've been too slow, and have often wondered if I've lost my way or am I still standing still, at where I've started and left behind.
FYP event day passed, final week of term tests passed, people left, life goes on.
The wheels on the bus go round and round.
Weeks and months have passed each time you blink an eye, and each day marks a few steps closer to graduating.
JK said 12 weeks to graduation.

Scary.

OMG, I sound like I have depression. WTH.

Had this talk on internships, resumes, cover letters and blablablah by this dude from some top institution on the last day of our papers. Telling us about how to register for this and that. Preparing self for interviews for potential scholarships and internships. Thought it was quite intriguing. Did I mention the dude's a year my junior? Looking at the angle that competition is coming from, I think I should stay in school a few more years. Uniiiiiiiiiiiiiii, please accept me and my ridiculously low GPA. I'll work hard, I promise!

Okay, ignoring scary thoughts regarding the future,
post exam celebration was awesomeeeee.
Went town, discovered a new mall, 313 @ Somerset.
made the whole town area feel like HongKong.
Hmm, which made me confused over choosing between the HK/Shanghai trip again.
While the rest of the people went to watch New Moon,
Daph & I had dinner at 313's Food Republic.
Eh, dont look down on it being just another kopitiam hor. The food there is DAMN NICE.

Youtube is not loading, & I'm getting hungry. WTF.

Anyway, that's just a dinner.
WENT FOR SEOUL'D OUT THE NEXT DAYYYYYYYYYYY, which is a few days ago.
OMGOMGOMG, OMFGGGGGGGGGGGG.
YES, I'M STILL OVERWHELMED.

CAN'T BELIEVE I WAS THEREEEEEEEE.
The whole event wasn't big, but it was good.
The queuing and waiting time was mad though.
Well they are still testing the local market I think.
HOPEFULLY, NEXT YEAR'S WILL BE EVEN BIGGERRRRRRRRR.
If so, please get a better venue, Fort Canning is just. -.-

OMGOMGOMGOMG.

& my leadersshii of BEG, IS REALLY DAMN SEXY IN PERSON.
was really pleasantly surprised to see that they have so many fans in SG.
I bet they are surprised too, well they looked surprised.
Esp, that leader dude from Tmax, I still cant rmb his name.
He's damn funny, he got overly excited at the crowd and started hopping around, singing off pitch, talking a lot, and at the end of the whole concert, he came out with his video camera to record down the whole scene. Cute not you say la!

BEST POST MST CELEBRATION EVERRRRRRRRR.
I SWEAR ALL THE CAPS LOCK AND OMGS IN THE WORLD CANNOT FULLY EXPRESS MY FEELINGS.
Sun, damn impromptu-ly decided to go down for the BEG fan meet.
Let me tell you , I swear all these Kpop action packed in a weekend is making me sosososososo happyyyyyyyyyyy.
Walked around, caught random movie that I rmb zonking out 75% of the time, like I was watching, but I wasn't really watching, and then, I know whats gg on as well. wth.

Monday, had the traditional kbox session with tintin. LOL.
Yes, we are still doing that, after every round of papers.
We are damn amazing + amusing, I know.
Walked around, bought doughnuts, which reminds meeee,
THEY ARE STILL IN THE FRIDGE.

Also, something else that always comes after examinations.
Guess what, I'm sick again.

Well, I'm getting really sleepy and should head off to bed soon.
Will try to blog more often in the future.

Ps, Seoul'd out still feels damn surreal.

Labels: :), ♥, events, sick, updates, worry

The lol one.

Hi, I've finally decided to blog here again. Yes, again.
Well, I didn't disappear for a lifetime anyway, just a month.
Had to clear the head a little before I got too caught up in a person, took a while, I guess.
Wonder who still comes here anyway. -__-
Shall consider wordpress.

So, it's about 2-3 weeks into the holidays already.

Did our second workshop for FYP during the first week, better than the first one in a way, and not quite good yet, in another way. Well, there's still tons to learn. After seeing the way the kids (what, they are half a decade younger okay. -.-) behaved, it's nice to know that Secondary School is still the same. I thought the way students behave would have changed with time, since so much has changed. The week ended with one of the most exciting matches I've ever attended. Definitely a job well done.

Went out with Sis on the second week, haven't spend time with her for the longest time. Fun, but damn tiring. It's exhausting okay. Met up with ShengTing, on Wednesday, after the longest time. Went Vivo, shopped a little, caught The Proposal, wasn't too bad, kid of heart warming, and fuzzy. (OMG, we are going Korea! I think this fact hasn't really sunk in. Cos all the time I'm still kind of zoned out. Heh. Wait till I start packing. I think I'll freak out.) Caught up a little on reading, as well. Packed my notes, cleaned up some stuff, etc.

Got a hammie with sis on Sunday! Damn adorable, only a month old. Named him, Nao, after this dude. Took a while for the fact that I got a new baby in the house to sink in. In fact, it took till about ytd for me to realise that by having said to want it, I'm really responsible for caring and loving it. Will do my best. :)

Okay, it's really late now, shall sleep, and go for a morning jog tomorrow, before FYP meeting.
Hm, shall change bedsheet tomorrow.

Labels: :), ♥♥, holidays, Love, mixed feelings, outings, updates, worry

oh you poor poor tooth.

I've always had this really irrational fear of visiting dentists since my first visit there to have one of my tooth filled when I was like five or four. I dont know why, it just seems really scary to me.

The thought of allowing them to just peer and take a peak into my mouth can put me off sleep for countless nights and I can even diet successfully cause of them.

So, imagine my fear whenever the dentist bus/van thing that visits secondary school comes to my sch in the past. I swear that I lose sleep over it till the day the nurse calls my name and my check up is over. & imagine the horror with all the so called plucking of wisdom tooth last year. I remembered I constipated lor. wtf.

& now, having one of my tooth filled at the beginning of this month, ON MY OWN, which is quite an accomplishment for me alrdy, a fact that I quite proud of. First visit to the dentist out of own initiative. okay, cos I can feel the hole there & I fear that I might have to pull out the tooth if I dont do somethg abt it soon, so I asked my dad to make an appointment with his dentist. Else, I wont even bother.

BUTTTT, that tooth, apparently has a rather large hole and though the filling has somehow stabilized it, some really hard new year goodie that I chewed chipped a corner off that really fragile tooth. So, I have to visit the dentist AGN, like this weekend, which kind of explains why Im still awake now, at this ungodly time. It's like nearly twice in a month. WTF. & the dentist is gg to scold me for not flossing my teeth cause I told him I would, when I dont even have the floss thg at home & I have no clue how it looks like. hai.

oh & btw, exams are in like two weeks, so I think, I might be gg MIA for awhile till like, 20 somethg Feb, not that I've been really active here recently, but yar, just so you know.

Note to self: buy dental floss tml.

& now, I just pray that he doesnt pull out the entire tooth, pls pls pls. TT______TT
PLEAS-ZZ. ARGH, cant the teeth just take care of themselves and not cause me so much worry & trouble & headache & fear & insomnias. wtf is their prob, cant they be like hair? just falling off when they feel like it and grow back in like maybe a month somuch so that I wont even notice their absence. * rolls eyes* wah lau. angry can.

* hurries off to write important teeth flossing shit in the organiser & brushes every single tooth hardworkingly.
TT_______TT

Labels: dental, worry

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